To Save Sanity

Is it easier
To be alone
To lose thought
To save sanity

To be indifferent
Not involved
To step away
And forget it all

I don't like it
Here in this hole
This hole of gloom
This gloom of despair

There is no meaning
In doing nothing
My life is worthless
Without a cause

What am I doing
Out on my own
How can I face
Without knowing how

How do I relate
Without having friends
Where do I go
With no way out

I have trouble
Facing this grief
With no face
In this ugly world

To find release
Is my desire
Not finding escape
But learning control

Control of being
Control of feelings
Mind numbing control
Life numbing blanket

(©Brian David Smith 3/5/2000)